5:45 pm Thursday, May 10, 2007
The sight and thought of her irks me...
Not my day today... Wanted to sleep so badly these few days... Felt like I'm going to sleep for eternity... Wanted to sleep everytime, everywhere.... Even when i'm doing my practicals a few days back... Even now, I feel drowsy...
Practically sick of everything now... Wanted a long long rest... If there is such a machine that can allow us to move freely in time, I rather to go back to the kiddy me... With no troubles at all... I rather stop at that time... At least I know i'm happier then...
Bused home alone... Getting used to being a loner again... Slept till I realized I'd overshot... Luckily it was only a 5 minutes more walk back home...
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you...
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you...
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your own pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing..
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid